Udaba lwami luqale emnyakeni embalwa edlule ngiqala ihigh school,angazi kwenzakalani kimi kodwa ngazithuka sengihlushwa abafana abadala kakhulu nje kunami bengeshela,ngase ngivele ngibaleke uma ngizohlangana nabafana endleleni,noMama naye waqala ukulokhu engibuza kuthi sengiqomile yini ngimncane kangaka,ngiphike ngoba vele nganginga kaqomi,yize noma wayekhona umfana engasengizwa ukuthi ngiyasha ngaye kodwa ngangesaba ukumqoma, angiyale ke uMama athi kimi ngimsize nje ngingalokothi ngigijimele abafana ngoba njengoba sengivele ngaba no mzimba engathi ngiwumfazi omdala, abafana bazobangisana ngami befuna ukungikhwela behalela lomzimba wami hayi ngoba bengithanda futhi bazongilutha ngezinto nami ngithatheke ngoba ngise mncane nasengqondweni,lapho ngabe ngenze ihlazo lapha egcekeni ngoba bobabili osisi bami abadala bazi phethe kahle,usisi omdala useqedile eVarsity,lona omunye wenza inyaka wokuqala eVarsity abakaze bamithe,sekungasuka mina umagcino ngizobathela ngehlazo ngimithe nokwenza ngise high school,ngamchazela umama ukuthi ngeke kwenzeke lokho kimi ngoba nase skoleni kwi L.O siya fundiswa ngobungozi bokulala nabafana.
Inkinga ke kuthe lapho sengenza u grade 11,nase skoleni sengi Popular ngenxa yokudlala kwami iNetball,ngaze ngaqokwa nakwi Regional team,lapho abafana nobhuti abadala nje endaweni benami shaqa,ngisho nabanye othisha mind you I'm only 17,kodwa ngathi ngiwu sisi omdala ngenxa yokuba mude no bukhulu bomzimba,uze ubone ngobuso ne voice ukuthi cha ngisayi ngane,nami ke ngokuthathwa wudumo ne attention eyisimanga engangiyithola kuthisha uMkhize owaye sifundisa yona i LIFE ORINTETION leyo,ngagcina sengimqomile ngoba he was such a gentleman,ube vele angihlakaniphele athi ukuze kungenzeki iphutha othandweni lwethu ngoba asazi ukuthi ikusasa lisiphatheleni kumele ngiyo jova, futhi kumele ngiye eclinic ekude nasekhaya khona ngingeke nokusaba ukubonwa abantu abangaziyo,ngempela lafika usuku ngaqamba amanga ekhaya ngithi ngiya kwi netball practice ye regional team etown kanti ngizo hamba naye uMkhize engihambisa eclinic kwaMaspala,siqede lapho angithengele oncamnce engingakaze ngibadle lokhu ngaba khona,saqeda lapho saya endlini yakhe, kwaba ukuphela kobuntombi bami ngalelo langa.
Khona yena bandla kubi okuqamba amanga he was so gentle,futhi ke nomthondo wakhe awukho mkhulu,yize ngaleso skhathi ngangingabazi nosayizi bamapipi,kodwa wangenza ngobukhulu ubunono angizwanga nobuhlungu obutheni kangangokuba after 2 days senzile ngase ngifuna siphinde futhi and lapho ke nami ngase ngim'nkonkoshela ngingasafuni akhiphe ngenxa yobumnandi,indaba iqale sengibhejwe uMkhize ngabona lapho ukuthi kanti sonke leskhathi bengizi phuthisela ngobumnandi obunje,kumnandi phela ukubhejwa inkinga noMkhize ndini ngimthola mhla kuthanda yena angithi siya ntshontshana,manje mina besingizizwa ukuthi ngifuna eyami indoda ezonginika umthondo noma nini uma angiwufuna,kwazise indlela ebesengizwa ngiwu thanda ngayo umthondo bese kungathi ngiloyiwe.
Ngaze ngagcina sengiqome lomfana wakwaNxumalo ekade ngamthanda kodwa ngisaba ukumtshela,emuva kwalokho ngaqala manje ngingasa bambeki,kwaze kwagcina ngokuthi uMama angibambe ukuthi sengiyajola,wangibuza ngavele ngankwakwaze wathi umamu "asazike ntombi uyabuya ubhuti wakho Ntambama uzozi bona ufana nobani...Mina anginayo ingane ezodlala amadoda incane kangaka" kusho umama engithethisa waqede wangikhiyela ekamereni,kuthe ntambama sekuqala ukuba mnyama uMama no sisi Ntobe lona ofunda eVarsity,bangivulela bangiqhuba bangisa endlini kabhuti uMthembeni (yena waye neminyaka ewu 25 ngaleso skhathi),lapho njengoba sibheke endlini ka bhuti bahamba bayangi giver "Eheee uzonya wena namhlanje...uMthembeni akatefelwa ke ukube uyazi...Kuzo kusiza ukuvele ukhulume iqiniso zisuka nje mtaka Mama uma ungafuni ukuyidonsa ngamazinyo ingubo isonto lonke...Futhi asazike wena ngoba uyisdudla nje akukho nakubaleka" kusho udadewethu uNtobe esho engihleka,lapho kimi uvalo selifuna ukuphuma ngomlomo,sengicabanga noku dlubulunda ngibaleke okungcono ngolala emahlathini phela uyabhaxana ubhuti uMthembeni alufakwa.
Ay ke size singene endlini ka bhuti aqale uMama am'xoxele yonke into okuthiwa ngiyayenza, no Ntobe afakaze naye ngokujola kwami nothisha ngivele ngiswele umgodi wokucasha,phela bengingazi ukuthi lendaba yami noMkhize isiyaziwa ekhaya,aqale angibuze ngomoya ophansi ubhuti,ngibakaze nginkwankwaze ngizame ukuyi phika lena ka thisha engibona ukuthi iyona ezongibulalisa ngesibhaxu kakhulu..."Hhayi mina bhut'wami angiyazi nje lendaba eshiwo uNtobe ungiqambela amanga nje lo...bhadla bhadla amatshe ezulu lingaduma lingi thathe bhuti wami buka istruuu angikaze ngiqome uthisha mina!" Kusho mina sengicwebise amehlo.
"Habe zwanini!!!Ngaze ngasizala isigebengu sengane... Mthembeni awunabise le sfebe sengane ngenduku ngoba ngizoyi klinya ngezandla zami ngiboshwe...Asambe Ntobe ngoba ngiyoze ngenze into engizozisola ngayo kanti lengane seyonakele kanje...Mthembeni ngithi Mthembeni muvithize ngenduku lo ngifuna azichamele abemanzi te ahlale inyanga yonke engakwazi kwakuhamba....ngiyalingwa ngisehlane...izalwa yimi kodwa lengane eyonakele kanje...Awu bolise lento ngenduku wena Mthembeni" kusho umama lapho akasadiniwe kanje usevele wabomvu angithi umpofu lokhu okweqile sdalo,lapho usephefumulela phezulu ngiyabona Uma engangibamba ngezandla ngabe ukufa kwami.
Bathe beqeda ukuphuma uMama no Ntobe,wavele wasukuma ubhuti wakhiya emnyango wafaka ikhiye ephaketheni,wavala ama windi, waqeda lapho wadonsa imvubu phezu kwe wardrobe waqonda kimi zavele zazehlela izinyembezi kimi kulowomzuzu ngimile ekhoneni ngiyakhala,"Khuluma wena ngoba angeke kukusize ukutetema la,angithi awutetemi uma ubheke emadodeni...Yah usuqomile wena? Futhi sebeku bhebhile angithi?" Kusho ubhuti,Ngivele ngikhumbule amazwi kaNtobe okuthi angikhulume iqiniso zisuka nje,ngempela Ngiphendule "Yebo bhut'wami" kusho mina,aphinde abuze "Sebeku bhebhe kangaki?" Ngibone ukuthi uma ngithi sengibhejwe cishe kawu 10 uzongibolisa ngenduku, ngivele ngithi "Kanye bhut'wami basa ngenze kanye bhut'wami ngiqinisile istruuu nasi" ngisho ngezwi elivevezelayo.
"Wabhejwa ubani...Uthisha noma ilomfana kaNxumalo?" Kubuza ubhuti...Ngiphendule "Umfana wakwa Nxumalo bhut'wami" phela angifuni kuthiwe ngilala nendoda eganiwe ngimncane kangaka,Lapho ke sengiyakhala ngicimezile manje ngilinde imvubu ukuthi ishe kimi emzimbeni,kusenjalo ngizwe umuntu wakhona ethi "Wena ucabanga ukuthi ngiyingane mina ngiyazi kahle imikhuba yakho nabafana,wena futhi kuncane lokhu okushiwo uMama unamanga nokuthi ubhejwe kanye wena sebekubulele abafana ngesende... Ngempela yini ube ne mpene umncane kangaka?"
"Ngempela bhut'wami ngisalale kanye nomfana" Ngizama ukuphika,avele adinwe kakhulu ubhuti ngimuzwe ethi "Futsek...Futsek...Doti...uqamba amanga la...Woza la sfebe ngizo kuqeda ubufebe namhlanje" avele angiyabule ngengalo angiphushele embhedeni athi "Khumula Sfebe" ngiqale nginqabe ngithi ngiyasaba, angithi phela ngibona kahle ukuthi ufuna ukungibhaxa ngemvubu nginqunu,avele abhoke ngolaka "Ngithi khumula wena nondindwa ngingaze ngidinwe ngishintshe umqondo" kusho yena,ngiqale ngixakeke manje uma esekhuluma eyokuthi angaze ashintshe umqondo,ngizwe ngiba ne themba lokuthi hleze angangishayi kakhulu,noma ufuna ukufaka umunwe engquza ezwe ukuthi isidliwe kangakanani,ngiqale ngikhumule ngize ngisale nge phenti,Ngibone manje ubhuti ehlahla amehlo aze aqinise ubuso ebuka iphenti lami,ngivele ngifunde kwezami ukuthi nalo kumele ngilikhiphe,ngempela ngenze njalo ngilikhiphe ngilibeke phansi ngiqede ngime phambi kwakhe,ngifihle ingquza ngezandla.
Kusenjalo ngizwe ubhuti ethi "Lala phansi uvule ingquza" luvele lungishaye kakhulu uvalo,lapho seluhlangene namahloni okuthi sengizovulela ubhuti wami ingquza, izothiwani nje leyonto,ngizame ukugoloza "Bhut'wami omuhle ngiyaxolisa ngeke ngiphinde,ngiyasaba ukulala ngivule, ayikho enye indlela ongangi phanisha ngayo okungcono,please bhut'wami ngiyacela" kusho mina ngizi ncengela,kuvele kufane nokuthi ngiyadlala nje,avele adonse imvubu ubhuti Mthembeni athi ukuyidlalisa kube ngathi uyayiqondisa,aqede lapho athi "Asazi ke kuwe ntombi...Awuzikhethele ukuthi ufuna ngiku bhaxabule ngemvubu ngikuqede ngayo lempene ekuphethe,noma uyalala la embhedeni uvule ingquza ngizizwele ukuthi usubhejwe kangaki...Khetha ke" kusho yena.
"Manje ubhuti uzozwa kanjani ukuthi sengi..." Ngithe ngingakaqedi ukukhuluma avele athethe ubhuti Mthembeni athi "Uyavula noma awuvuli wena" lapho useze washintsha nase busweni,angitshelwanga muntu emva kwalokho ukuthi angiphoseke embhedeni ngahlekeza amathanga, ngasitha ingquza ngesandla ngesinye ngivale ubuso,kulowomzuzu ngizwa nengquza yami isimanzi,angisazi sengizichamele noma sekuyimizwa yocansi le esengiyizwa manje engingayazi ukuthi isiqhamuka kuphi ngempela.
Ngimpopole phakathi kweminwe ngimbone ekhumula,ngivele ngibone ukuthi lento ebengiyisola yiyo kanye ezokwenzeka la,awee nkosi yami ubhuti uzongibhebha straight,kusenjalo asondele kimi agibele embhedeni,asuke lapho afake umunwe engquza yami anginwaye nobhontshisi,ngivele ngiqhanyelwe zisuka ingquza ibe manzi,ayizwe no bhuti ikuthi sengimanzi,avele athi umthetho wakho unempene ngempela wena,buka nje usumanzi kanje zisuka...Nxa vula ingquza ngikubhebhe sfebe...Futhi umangikubhebha ukhale khona kuzoba ngathi ngiyakushaya uyangizwa?" Kusho ubhuti Mthembeni "Yebo bhut'wami omuhle" kuphendula mina ngezwi iliqhaqhazelayo,lapho ke sengizwa kahle ukuthi I made the right choice,kungcono kabi ukubulawa ngale mvubu ezongena kimi emnandi kunokubhaxatshulwa umzimba wonke ngalemvubu yeplastiki etebezelayo ezongidabula umzimba wonke.
Kusenjalo ngizwe umthondo kabhuti usu shisa kumnandi ezindebeni zegolo kuvele kuthi ngichame same time,kulowomzuzu ubhuti uzama ukuwu ncenga umthondo kodwa awungeni kahle mkhulu kakhulu lomthondo,ngithuke ngihambise isandla ngizama ukuwubamba, ngempela ngiwugxavune uvele ugcwele isandla...Ngivele ngishawe uvalo,Weeeh nkosi yami ngizobathela yini,ngimangazwa ubukhulu bomthondo kabhuti njengoba ngiwubambile yena eqhubeka ewuncenga elokhu epetula izindebe zegolo ngawo,phela mina lamapipi amabili engihlala ngiwashintshanisa mafishane futhi mancane,manje leli lika bhuti liyangithusa,kodwa okungixakayo ngizwa lomthondo ka bhuti Mthembeni ungiqhanyelisa ngenye indlela engingayazi jwayele,angithi njengoba elokhu engipetula ngawo izindebeni zegolo ngizwa obunye ubumnandi engingabujwayele,lapho ingquza yami ivele iqhaqhazele emuva kwalokho ngiyizwe idedela ojuice abashisayo,baze bachithekele emthondweni kabhuti.
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